A Letter From God

I was chatting with a friend last night updating each other on the craziness that we did this year and how life has turned out so far. I am lucky to have her. She is one proof that you don’t need to be together for a long time or you don’t need to know each other for years. It’s just that when you click, you click.

So before we ended our girl talk, she suggested one good read that she thinks is very apt for me now. I found the title in Kindle, downloaded a sample, and then eventually bought it.

I want the book to be my end-of-the-year read. So I was thinking of starting a few chapters an hour ago when I remembered that I don’t have my journal with me. I scurried back to my room and got it. It has been a habit to write down thoughts while I read something nourishing. It makes the lessons stick longer.

And as I was browsing through my journal that I haven’t written on for a long time, pieces of paper not part of the notebook came out.

A letter from God.

I attended one retreat last September. A time when I thought too many things were happening all at the same time. A time when my greatest concern was a broken heart.

One of the activities there was to let God write me a letter. I reread it again. It made me almost choke in my seat. His words refocused my perspective and gave me strength to keep moving the ball forward.

Let me share to you that very personal letter of His.

God said,

September 30, 2012

My everdearest, sweetest Leslee,

How are you enjoying earth so far? Isn’t it amazing? The interplay of all the elements make it very amazing and a wonderful place to live.

I know that you are going through a period now. I don’t want to say tough because nothing is tough for me. Be with it. Ride with it. Enjoy the plethora of emotions that it is giving you. There is a lesson there, a wonderful lesson that I hope you will never forget.

It might seem sad, unfair, devastating, painful, unimaginable, unfathomable. I know that you are carrying hurt and pain with you now. Just let it be. You will wake up one day and the negative feelings are gone. I will heal you. But you have to learn the lesson first.

Everything that I created is wonderful and is from Me. You might wonder sometimes why things don’t turn out the way you expect it to be. I have My reasons. They are wonderful when revealed.

Take care of yourself now. Strengthen your heart. Open it and let love in. I have sources of love that you are blocking to enter. Let them in. I will take care of you.

Don’t worry about plans. I have them all laid out. Just follow the signs. Do your best. You won’t stray. I know you won’t stray. I put that strength and power in you.

Everyday is a new chance to live life. Enjoy it. I give it to you.

Sometimes you try to do things your way. Sometimes you forget that I am God. In those moments, I let you be. But I am always in a safe distance if you need Me. I know you want your independence, your free will, your exploration. But you know what? All of them lead back to Me. Because everything is from Me. And everything is for you.

In times when life seems unfair, it is not. Everything is under the Master Plan.

Lay your heart to Me. I know you are wounded. Let Me heal you. I will heal you. You just have to trust Me. I know what’s best for you. Keep calm. You don’t need to do anything. Listen to My inner guidance. You’ll know what to do when the right time comes.

Now, just enjoy your last days of being in your 20s. Isn’t it wonderful? I have a new set of great adventures for you to be conquered in the next ten years. It will blow your mind again. Everything is for you. Because I LOVE YOU.

Always here,
GOD

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The October Tradition

Too happy. 🙂

This is the 6th year of the Norman-Leslee Double Birthday celebration. And guess what? We are still counting. Yay!

Norman was a former student whose birthday falls almost the exact same date as mine. It just happened one time in 2006 (he already graduated from the uni and has started working), that he decided to celebrate his birthday with me and his other classmates in that particular course that I handled.

Well, I can’t blame him. I am such a charming, funny, lovely, sexy, can’t-get-enough-of-Ms. Leslee kind of teacher. Ok… ok… Don’t kill me. 🙂

Since he knows that my special day is just a few days from his, he made it his mission to always give me a free pass on his lunch/dinner celebs (read: singit). I always have a birthday cake even if it is his birthday! Yay! I am loved and blessed.

Anyway, the rest is history. We have been doing this celeb every year. It has been a tradition that we hope to keep as long as we can.

So this October is no different. The usual suspects in this double-birthday celebration are Norman, Chico, TJ and me. Other former students who were their classmates in that course join from time to time. But these four are the constants. Too bad TJ lives in Singapore as of the moment so he is MIA. He missed the great food, moist cake and most importantly the juicy chika. Oh well.

Call time was after work. And look what welcomed me when I arrived in LB?! The most vividly-colored rainbow I have ever seen this year. My jaw dropped. I forgot for a moment that I was driving. My heart was just singing.

Pardon the crappy shot. I didn’t do justice to the rainbow. I only know how to use Auto from my camera for now. I tried adjusting those ISO and F whatever then I shifted back to Auto. Eeeee. Too complicated. Other joggers and bikers were smitten too. For a moment, everybody in my hearing distance was talking about it.

Chico being the ever paimportante has to be fetched (again) in his office. And since he has several offices, I have to figure out where the fudge he is. Ok. He was in the Student Organizations and Activities Division (SOAD) office this time. Fine. And how many certificates can you count? What the… 🙂

We decided to hold our birthday dinner in Arla’s. Upon arrival, we learned there was Arla’s no more.

It turned out Cafe Antonio absorbed the resto. But no need to fret. The fave dishes like Soy Grilled Chicken and stuff are still intact. Cafe Antonio bought all the rights and privileges (say what?! I don’t know how you call that) of all the former resto’s recipes. So the menu is the same plus the great coffee, drinks and what-have-yous of the coffee shop. It’s a win-win situation if I may say. No need to jump places. All are in one now. Yay!

Chico being the ever maasahan reserved a table for us earlier. That was wise since the place is cute and cosy and can fill up quickly.

These are what we got.

Fish and Chips
Pork Tenderloin Steak with Mashed Potato
Seafood Spinach Fettucine
Soy Grilled Chicken with Brown Rice
Nachos with Chili Beef and Cheese

And I forgot to take photos of the drinks. I had my usual iced tea. This one is Chico’s which looks very interesting and sinful. I pass. Hello 59 kilos.

Red Velvet Frothiccino

And we are ready to eat.

(L-R) Norman, Norman’s girlfriend Cha, Chico and me

The food is so yum, I believe. The plates were extra clean afterwards save for the shells and bones that litter.

The usual reminiscing happened as well as updates. We don’t get to see each other very often especially since we rarely frequent LB nowadays. But I cannot help but feel unusually grateful that this kind of relationship lasted despite the odds. As what they say, “If there’s a will, there’s a way.” We surely have a will because we lasted 6 years to continue this October tradition.

The customary blowing of cake happened. Norman never forgets to include me in his cake. He is such a sweet soul.

Plus, look what I got?!

Turkish CAY BARDAK!!!!
Ama cok guzel!!! Masallah!
Cok cok coooooook tessekur ederim Chicocim. Ama siz cok severim.

Thanks Chico for that much coveted cay bardak aka Turkish tea cup. 🙂 Thanks for the extra effort of getting one for me from your recent trip to Turkey. I SO LOVE IT. I SO LOVE YOU NA. Eeeeek.

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I love birthdays. I am a sucker for birthdays. More than the fear of getting older by a year, this special day is for thanksgiving.  Not everybody is given a chance to have another year of lease in this world, a chance to do things right, a chance to experience more, a chance to experiment more, a chance to live a life that God intends us to have. Birthdays make me pensive too. It makes me think of how I was the previous year. Was I nicer? kinder? more patient? more loving? What values were I able to cultivate? What trials were I able to pass? Who were the new people that I got to meet? Which new experiences did I enjoy the most?

Birthdays are more than just an ending, ending of a year that we want to hold on to and keep because we don’t like the idea of getting old. But birthdays are new beginnings, beginning of new challenges, new experiences, new life.

Soon I will be celebrating a milestone in my life. Oh yes, I am about to enter that number which I still have to make peace with. I am anxious and excited all at the same time. But if this celebration is a prelude to the kind of life that I will be having in the next 365 days of my new year, I am more than willing to usher it in excitedly. Oh yes, I am looking forward to that big THREE-OH. But not just yet. Big gulp. 🙂

 

P.S.

Norman is really known as Nelson Aman in real life. There was just something wrong in my brain that semester when I kept calling him Norman instead of Nelson come recitation time. The name stuck. He will always be Norman to me. Advance happy birthday sweetie. I wish you all your heart’s desires.

P.S.2.

Cafe Antonio is located in 5024 National Hi-way, Brgy. Maahas, Los Baños, Laguna.

You can reach them for reservations in this number: 09064550522

You can also check their website for the list of their menu and other updates: http://cafeantonioelbi.blogspot.com/